Date:	2005-06-10 04:54
Subject:	adventures in building a bankroll from practically nothing.
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful

this should be fun.

i'm working right now, but not getting enough hours or enough downs to make very much money. at least, it feels that way. i'm at the palms, dealing their "no limit hold 'em summer series." and when they say no limit hold 'em, they meant it. i haven't dealt a different game in weeks. even the cash games i've somehow stumbled into were nlhe. let me tell you, from a dealing perspective, this is both good and bad.

good, because hold 'em is a very easy game to deal. not much to think about. it runs quickly (assuming you're not coaching first timers through how the game works) and pretty smoothly most of the time.

bad, because it's booooooooooooooooooring. so ungodly boring. i'm sorry, hold 'em lovers. but your game just isn't very interesting at the limits i usually get to deal. put me into something big, something with black chips or above and maybe it'll be a little better. but $1/2 blind $100 capped buy-in nlhe is dull. what, you're agonizing over that preflop raise? it was five dollars. here. i'll give you five dollars. fucking call, raise, or fold. in the poker world, time translates to money for everyone. you go in the tank for every decision you make, then you're taking hands away from me and the other players. i make less, they play less, the house makes less. lose, lose, lose.

i understand that it can be a complicated and intricate game. i'm not saying that even the most minimal of raises can't carry a world of implications with them. what i'm saying is stop showboating by flipping on your shades and settling into your chair for a real deep thinking session when it's a routine decision. </cranky>

anyway, things should look up in the key west room soon. if they don't, meh, i'll be off in a few weeks to find another job. i might work at the hustler for two weeks at the end of july. i dunno. i might not.

back to my bankroll. it's currently almost all online (i have about seventy in cash in my little safebox) with full tilt. i'm not sure why i like that site so much, but i'm stuck on it right now. it's hovering right around $300 right now. yeah. i know. give me some time, remember this is a journey during which we follow my progress in BUILDING one. not playing with a real one. i'll cut this short but leave you with the following thoughts/goals/whatever you want to call them.

1. i need to empty my accounts that i currently use and create new ones through a rake rebate site. they exist and are worth it, i am told. my new username on all sites will likely be "poddington."

2. i figure it's realistic to hope to average something like $50 a day in my quest to build this thing. that will add about $300 a week, which will give me something decent to work with by the time this bun is ready to come out of the oven. *is referring to her baby here*

3. discipline. hello. nice to meet you. oh, i've heard a lot about you, but never got the chance to really sit down and get to know you. i'm really looking forward to forming a lasting relationship with you starting right about now. i'm hoping you will help me steel myself against those blasted bigger no limit cash games that destroy me every time i get close to having a true bankroll. please help me avoid losing hundreds upon hundreds every time i push all in with KK or AA.